world aids day 2008

The dust has finally settled after our event and the numbers are in: for World AIDS day 2008, a total of 1,251 people were tested for hiv; 9 were positive. Hundreds and hundreds of hiv educational materials (books, pamphlets, and posters) were distributed; there was fierce competition for Tony’s hand-sewn AIDS ribbons and for the t-shirts we had printed (the t-shirts read: Ninajua Afya Yangu. Na Wewe Je? This translates as: ”I know my health. How about you?”) We showed hiv-related videos and held the first-ever candlelight vigil; people publicly told their stories about becoming infected with hiv, which is brave in any country, and there was lots of singing and drumming. There were small bouts of drama over the three day event, which we now understand is normal, and our garden hose got stolen when we weren’t at home, but all in all, I am proud of this project. It’s impossible to know the impact of our presence here, but I’m hoping that with every hiv-related thing we do we are raising awareness of the magnitude of this disease in Tanzania.

In other project news: I managed to show 8 of the 10 planned hiv-related videos at the secondary school before running into a snag. Towards the end of the school year, which is late November, the students have final exams, plus they start helping their parents to prepare the fields for farming; the last few videos were poorly attended because so few students were still in town—most left school early to get started on farming. Good lesson to learn. I will show the final two videos to our hiv support group, which is called Kikundi cha Upendo (which means “Club of Love”). We have been spending a lot of time with that group, which consists mostly of people living with hiv or AIDS; we talk about nutrition, health issues, medication issues, stigma, and anything else related to hiv. It’s hard to believe, but many, many people here (not only in Kibakwe, but I’m guessing in Tanzania as a whole) do not understand how they were infected with hiv, and they do not understand the progression of the disease and the need to stay as healthy as possible (and avoid other diseases, like malaria or diarrhea, which are particularly hard on people without fully functioning immune systems). I am inspired by so many people that I have become friends with who are infected with hiv; many of them have come to accept their disease without anger or resentment, and are eager to help educate others. They are the sole reason I am here.

The rains have started! We have had 5 or 6 big, hard rains, and everything is turning green: our living fence came back to life, the mountains look like broccoli, Tony is working in the garden every day (pulling weeds, preparing beds, planting seeds—the sunflowers have already sprouted!), and our beloved giant zambarau tree (remember from last year? It’s a plum tree) has begun raining tiny purple plums all over our yard. It’s amazing how the rain and clouds improve my mood and outlook here—like we were all dying of thirst and now we’re coming back to life. It’s hard for those of us who don’t farm for a living to understand the absolute necessity of rain—imagine putting ALL YOUR FAITH in the rain, all your hopes for food and money (from selling your crops) for your family’s well-being. Water is life, and living here has illustrated that in ways I could never imagine.

Pipi my beloved kitten is doing very well. She is probably about one year old by now, and has gotten very courageous about exploring; she climbs trees (with the great ambition of catching a bird, but so far hasn’t gotten one) and hunts with tenacity (lizards, insects and mice are her preferred objects of prey.) She still purrs more than any cat I have ever known, and sleeps curled up against my body every single night. I love her.

How’s my mood? Up and down, quite truthfully, which has been the case ever since I got here 1½ years ago. I’m proud of how far I’ve come; I’m proud that I can speak Swahili, and I’m proud that I’ve managed to live in a difficult environment for as long as I have. I’m sad that I’ve missed so many happy things back home (babies being born, friends buying houses, friends falling in love, friends getting married), and when I have a case of the blues here, realizing all those things that I’m missing is extra sad. We won’t be on the beach this year for Christmas, but we’ll be in Dar es Salaam with Peace Corps friends, enjoying some luxuries that we usually live without. Some dear friends from home are coming to visit us after Christmas, and we are counting the minutes until they get here. So—we’re in the home stretch of this phase of our lives, and have started setting our sights on the next goal (grad school and MAYBE a baby, if you can believe it). I hope this update finds you happy and healthy and grateful for everything you have. Ninakutakia heri ya Krismas na mwaka mpya (“I am wishing you the happiness of Christmas and the New Year.”)

hard times

This is going to be a completely honest blog update. I am really struggling right now: struggling with motivation, struggling with optimism, struggling with enthusiasm, struggling with the blues. I''m not quite sure what happened, but everything suddenly became very, very difficult. While we are going full steam ahead with our World Aids Day plans (massive hiv testing event over 3 days, with music, movies, singing, dancing, drumming and a candlelight vigil), and my hiv movie days at the secondary school have been a big hit, some of our other projects are fizzling. Our English and Art clubs at the secondary school have had dwindling attendance; Tony's wrote a grant to buy sewing and gardening supplies for our orphan's group and many of them have lost interest in learning to sew or maintain their garden; we have had big problems with water, just like last year; people have been begging from us worse than ever. We don't honestly know who wants to be our friend because they genuinely like us or because they want something from us. We have most definitely put ourselves out there and are doing our jobs the best we can, but I think this is pretty typical of development work: people lose interest in projects and simply wait for the next handout. I have lost heart. I am burned out. My posture is hunched because I have subconsciously started trying to "hide" from the constant, relentless staring--I cannot do anything without being stared at like the pink elephant in the living room. No, don't send somebody to come and get me--I'm going to ride this out and see where I end up. I am doing my best to take care of myself, but right now, I am looking forward to the next chapter of my life, post Peace Corps Tanzania. Sorry. I warned you it was going to be the whole truth this time.

In other news, we managed to find a tv in Mpwapwa to watch some election coverage, and we got to see Obama's acceptance speech. I am so very proud to be an American.

me again!

We are just finishing up a week in Dar es Salaam for our Mid Service Conference-- we had medical check ups, dental cleanings, and processed our first year of service. It was a good week, really nice to hear from our fellow volunteers about their projects and plans for the second year--a nice exchange of ideas. So we are heading back to our village after an exciting week in the big city, eating as much pizza and yogurt as we could lay hands on.

I am sending out a call for puzzles--yes, puzzles. Tony and I were talking about fun, useful games for the kids in our village, and we remembered puzzles! If anyone is interested in sending us a care package of puzzles, we would be most grateful--easy puzzles for the little kids, and difficult puzzles for the high school kids. We're trying to provide as many options for positive after-school activities as possible. Thanks!

So I had an idea that I'm really, really excited about, and I wanted to share it. I mentioned our Orphans group, Tumaini, in my last blog entry. Well, I started thinking about the stories that they told us about their lives, and I decided that I would like to try to informally publish a book of their stories--stories about being an orphan or vulnerable child in Tanzania. Once we get home from Dar, I'm planning to meet with them to talk about my idea and see if they're interested, but I expect a lot of kids will want to participate. I'm going to ask them to write their story, or write a poem about their lives, or draw a picture that represents an experience of their lives; then I'm planning to translate their stories in English, then, somehow, take all those stories and assemble a book so their stories can be heard. If this idea goes anywhere, and we actually sell copies of this book, the profits can be used to start a scholarship program to support these kids in continuing with their studies after high school. What do you think?

I haven't been home in a week, but I hear Pipi's hajambo (Pipi "has no issues").

this is a long one

Remember me? It’s been a long time, so much to write about!
Our Community Theater workshop in Morogoro (back in July) was really fun: lots of singing, dancing, game playing, and performing skits. The idea of “play as education” is extremely popular in Tanzania; our counterparts, Madinda and Renfrida, absolutely loved it, and are really excited to use some of our newly acquired ideas and games in Kibakwe.
I started an English Club at our secondary school (high school) a few weeks ago, and it’s going really well. We meet after school two days a week to practice speaking simple English. Students in Tanzania are taught English in high school but comprehension is not high; teachers usually just write sentences on the blackboard and students copy and memorize—that’s it. Ironically, the English teachers here in Kibakwe don’t even really speak English. Anyway, we’re having lots of fun, and I’m trying to be creative with my teaching methods. My focus is not to teach sentence structure or grammar—that’s too technical. I’m focusing on building self-confidence when speaking English, correct pronunciation, and comprehension. People tend to be quite shy when learning to speak a new language—certainly true for me as I was initially learning to speak Swahili. I think it’s important to not be afraid to make mistakes. Email any ideas or suggestions for my club—I’m open to anything!
Tony is continuing to meet with his Art Club at the secondary school two days a week as well. His group of students really love to draw, so they hang out together and draw and chat. He’s trying to encourage creativity, a concept that’s not really taught or valued among children.
We started another club at the secondary school called Tumaini Club; tumaini means “hope” in Swahili, and it’s a club for orphans/children living in difficult environments. There are 59 kids in this group, all of whom are miraculously attending high school (incidentally, about 340 kids regularly attend high school in Kibakwe), and there are countless other orphans in Kibakwe who do not attend school. At one of our first meetings, we asked them to talk about their lives and help us learn about their living conditions. They were shy, but some students really wanted to tell their stories. We also asked them to write about their situations; we brought the papers home, Tony translated them, and it was absolutely heartbreaking. Almost any orphan you see in Tanzania is most likely the result of one or both parents dying from AIDS. You have probably heard of the expression OVC, which means Orphans and Vulnerable Children. In Tanzania, a child (under the age of 18) is considered an orphan if one parent dies, and children are considered vulnerable if they live in difficult situations (being cared for by grandparents or other relatives because parents died, sick parents, alcoholic caretakers, abuse, etc.) Our plan with the Tumaini Club is to offer the opportunity to learn various trades, like gardening and sewing, to enable the students to earn a little money. I’m sure I’ve written about this before, but as a high school student here in Kibakwe, there is absolutely no chance of having an after-school job to earn extra money like kids in America do—the options are simply not there. They have already started a garden (actually, all of the secondary students planted a vegetable garden) and have started selling mchicha (Tanzanian spinach that grows in 3 weeks) to the vendors in our market! Later on this week we are meeting with Tumaini Club to teach them our Peace Corps permaculture methods of gardening (digging extra deep so roots can grow down and not require as much water, plus using lots of manure) to help them grow more vegetables, thereby generating MORE income, plus learning about the value of eating a diet rich in vitamins and minerals—from their veggies! Last week they started to learn how to sew—my counterpart, Renfrida, is a tailor, and she, in conjunction with one of our teacher friends, Nickson, also a tailor, are teaching them to make patterns and sew clothes, plus other things like dolls and pillows. Our challenge, as Peace Corps volunteers, is to take the resources that are available and funnel them into viable projects that will continue in our absence. In this gardening example, the resources that are available are land for a garden, small amounts of water mostly every day, and students willing to work hard. Tony has written a small grant to try to buy some supplies to support these OVCs in their income-generating efforts: buckets, hoes, a hose for watering, vegetable seeds, a non-electric sewing machine, and basic sewing supplies like thread and needles and scissors. Once these projects get fully underway, we will evaluate their success and possibly work to get additional sewing machines and other supplies for these kids. Another income-generating idea I have is making peanut butter, which I think I’ve written about before. Peanuts are one of the main crops grown here in Kibakwe, and people use peanut flour in cooking lots of different foods. Everyone I’ve shared my peanut butter with (I buy it in Mpwapwa, and it’s made in Arusha, a region far away from us) loves it; if the Tumaini kids are into it, we’ll try to get them a grinder so they can grind and sell their own peanut butter. I have to say that I’m really excited about the possibilities of this club; the kids are enthusiastic, and energy is high.
Yet another project I’m planning is showing hiv-related videos at the secondary school. I have written a small grant to rent the TV/VCR, and am currently waiting to get the money. This project is aimed at providing an after school activity that’s fun, interesting and useful for the secondary students. Madinda will be my counterpart for this project; we’ll show videos every week for 10 weeks, then have a group discussion following each one. All students will be invited, and I’m expecting a high turnout.
Why, you might ask, are we doing so many projects at our secondary school? The answer is simple: we have a great Head Master (principal) who supports every project idea that we come up with—he’s worked with other Peace Corps volunteers in other parts of Tanzania before, he speaks English really well, and he genuinely cares about his students. He was transferred to Kibakwe last March, right before our Women’s Day event, and that’s about the time Tony and I started to feel like things were falling into place. That’s also the time that we met Madinda, our fantastic counterpart, and Nickson, the secondary teacher who also really cares about the students and wants to make things better. The last 5 months have been about discovering the “gems” here in Kibakwe who have a genuine interest in their community, and we found them.
Yes, a few more project ideas are floating around: starting a support group for People Living with HIV/AIDS (PLWHA)—an idea from the head doctor here in Kibakwe; spending some time with the little kids at the primary school (grade school), who also has an excellent Head Master; and finally, planning a HUGE World Aids Day (December 1) hiv testing event. Whew!

Tony and I hosted a shadower here in early August—a new Peace Corps Trainee who arrived in Tanzania in June of this year. So hard to believe that was us one year ago! Shadow week is so the new trainees can live with current volunteers to see what Peace Corps life is really like, and we had a great time. We then had the opportunity to be Volunteers of the Week for the final week of new trainee training. We went to Dar for site announcements, where all the trainees learned where they were going to be placed, then we went with them back to Kilosa, the town where training takes place, to help participate in the permaculture (gardening, Peace Corps style) presentation. Being Volunteer of the Week means that you hang out with the trainees during part of their training, answer questions, and share your experiences as Peace Corps volunteers. Again, we had a great time, and it was really fun to see our homestay mama, Mama Chacha, in Kilosa!
Pipi hajambo. (Literally translated, this means “Pipi has no issues.”) Which is to say that our kitten is doing very well, and we love her.
We are well into the dry season here in Kibakwe. Everything that was once green is now brown: mountains, trees, grass, gardens. We are getting water out of the faucet in our yard most nights, not every day, all day, like it was for the last few months. We have one small bed of veggies growing; we are working on replacing the fence of thorns to keep the dreaded chickens out of our yard, and are sprucing up our garden (cleaning and re-forming the beds) for the coming rainy season.
Everyone said our second year of Peace Corps would be better than the first, and it’s turning out to be completely true. Our Swahili language skills are solid, we have great friends in our community, and projects are underway. We are really happy to be here in Tanzania, and can now recognize how difficult the first year was for us. Having said that, no matter how great of an experience this is, we miss home and everything about it: people, places, foods, and comforts. Usitusahau! (“Please don’t forget us!”)

vacation

Yep, we took a vacation, and it was spectacular. Our dear friend Joanna came to see us for three weeks, and it was excellent: we spent time on the beach in Zanzibar, we spent time in our village, and we went on an amazing safari to Ngorongoro Crater and Tarangire National Park (highlights: we saw rare black rhinos, lions, elephants, zebras, warthogs, hyenas, giraffes, wildebeest, flamingos, and ostriches). We took LONG bus rides with chickens at our feet (and occasionally on our laps), got clothes made in our village, ate ugali (the staple food of Tanzania, which is corn flour cooked with water--like polenta, only flavorless), baked a cake on our charcoal stove, shopped in the markets, got henna tattoos in Zanzibar, bought beaded jewelry from Maasai women, slept in a FANCY tented camp after our safari, and swam in the Indian ocean: a perfect holiday, minus one extremely clever thief who stole our camera bag from right above our heads on the bus. It was so fun to see Tanzania through the eyes of a visitor--and show off our Swahili language skills. Everyone was healthy and happy throughout, including our favorite Peace Corps friend, Stephanie, who was with us for Zanzibar and the safari. Check Tony's blog in the next month or so--he'll post pictures.

Pipi the kitten is doing extremely well; plans are already underway for bringing her home with us when we finish our work in Tanzania. Some Peace Corps friends just took their dog back with them when they finished their service, and they said it was extremely easy.

Tony and I have two new counterparts who we'll be working with on projects in the future; my counterpart is named Renfrida (or Mama Cocu, as she's called in our village), and Tony's counterpart is named Madinda. They are really motivated and excited to work together, particularly within the schools and with our fellow villagers, which is exciting for us. They were both doing volunteer work with hiv/aids before we arrived in Kibakwe, so I think we'll all work well together. We are taking a break from our dudes, who have been unmotivated and largely absent for the last few months; we need a breath of fresh air. We are all together in Morogoro right now for a Peace Corps workshop which starts tomorrow; as always, I'll keep you posted.

There is a bit of drama in Mpwapwa right now, but nothing to be alarmed about. Within the last 6 or 7 months rubies and sapphires were discovered in some mountains close to Kibakwe. As a result, LOTS of strangers are passing through and/or settling in Mpwapwa and Kibakwe these days: people from other countries who have come to buy the stones, and Tanzanian miners who have come to dig these stones and make a LOT of money selling them to the foreigners. Because we're foreigners, too, the miners who don't know us think we're there to buy the stones like all the other foreigners. There has been an increase in robberies, and the price of everything has skyrocketed. So far Tony and I have been safe, and we're very well liked in our village, so I'm hoping our fellow villagers will keep looking out for us. Things in our area are changing every single day--it's like a gold rush, and I'm extremely concerned about the very realistic possibility of hiv rates rising as a result of all the transient people with spare change in their pockets (men far from home + extra money=prostitution opportunities). A serious health threat, no doubt. Stay tuned.

remember me?

Yes, it's been a long time since my last blog entry, sorry to keep you in suspense. Our computer time has been particularly limited lately, so without further delay, here's the news:

Kibakwe is turning brown. The rains stopped in March, and we won't get rain again until November or December. The weather is chilly at night, the sun is kali ("fierce") during the day, and the winds are starting. The farmers have mostly harvested their peanuts and corn, and are working on harvesting sunflowers (to make into cooking oil) right now. After the harvest, there is no additional farming work to do until October or November, when it's time to start preparing the farms for the next planting. That means that the upcoming months are a good time for projects that involve the community (as opposed to projects that involve students or teachers) because people are around (not on the farms) and have time. Unfortunately, the "months of rest" also offer ample time for pombe (home-brewed alcohol) consumption, which, in my opinion, contributes significantly to hiv infection rates. I read an excellent book, recommended by a good Peace Corps friend, called The Invisible Cure, by Helen Epstein. It discusses hiv/aids in Sub-Saharan Africa, and the various projects by charitable organizations that have succeeded and failed with regard to hiv/aids intervention, and the reasons why. If you're interested in this subject like I am, you will read this book--really, really interesting.

Despite the lack of rain, our garden is still doing pretty well--in spite of the chickens who manage to sneak in and eat everything they can. We got a steady supply of Chinese cabbage (the chicken's favorite), beets, green onions, lettuce, green beans, mchicha (local spinach), green peppers, and a few squash and zucchini. Cabbage and carrots look promising (they take a little longer), and our papaya trees (we planted dozens) are doing extremely well--we're hoping to get fruit by the end of the year. Our tomatoes were a disaster--not one single tomato. We have a water pump in our yard that has mostly been working (the water line that supplies our pump gets cut off from time to time, and these random "line diversions" will become more and more frequent the further into the dry season that we get), so we've been able to water our garden almost every single day. There are very few vegetable gardens in Kibakwe (there are lots of huge farms, in contrast, which rely exclusively on rain for water), because water is such a huge problem; as a result, there are very few vegetables to buy in our tiny market (most veggies come from Mpwapwa, which actually really come from Morogoro or Arusha, where there's rain all year). The reason I'm saying this is because people have been knocking on our door every single day, asking to buy veggies from us. Our dudes, Gilbert and Zizo, took the initiative to create a large garden of their own, hoping to make some money selling vegetables to meet the demands of our villagers. The used the concepts of permaculture that they learned from one of our Peace Corps workshops; the garden looks really good, and they've actually begun selling things. Hongera sana ("Congratulations!!")

Pipi the kitten is great, as sweet and affectionate as any cat I've ever met in my life. I've only heard her hiss once, at a strange boy cat who started coming around when she was in heat. I honestly can't tell if she's pregnant. She doesn't help keep the chickens out of the yard--she could care less, frankly, but she does like to hunt for mice and bring them under our bed to play with/eat them. She sleeps with us every single night, in our bed, which Tanzanians find hilarious when I tell them. I explain that Americans really value their pets (specifically, dogs and cats) and treat them really well; I do this to try to demonstrate that there are other ways to interact with animals other than beating them, which is normal behavior here.

Tony and I each conducted a one-day hiv/aids seminar last month; his audience was the villagers who are members of the various hiv/aids groups that exist in Kibakwe (the groups don't actually do much, but they have meetings occasionally, and expressed a strong interest in learning accurate hiv/aids information), and my audience was the primary and secondary school teachers of Kibakwe. In general, the workshops went really well, particularly the workshop for the villagers: they were thrilled to receive books about hiv/aids and nutrition (donated by Peace Corps, written in Kiswahili), and our head doctor (the main presenter) did an excellent job of engaging everyone. Each workshop was a little different, because not all the villagers could read and write, but all the teachers could; knowing this, the doctor made sure he adjusted his teaching style and vocabulary accordingly. Everyone was fed breakfast and lunch, got to watch videos about hiv/aids issues like stigma, and left with a pile of books. For days after, people came to our house or stopped us in the street, telling us how great the workshop was, how they can't wait for the next one. The dynamic with the group of teachers was different; they appeared less interested and engaged than the villagers, and some were irritated that they didn't get a posho-- a daily wage paid to people so that they attend workshops or other events. Tony and I decided long ago that we would not offer posho to people when we organized events; we feel like paying people to learn is not within the spirit of learning, that education and educational materials were the most important thing to go home with. Unfortunately, the posho system is alive and well in Tanzania, and it's a big problem, but we're not going to do it, despite the grumblings from the teachers. The preparations for our workshops were huge, but we did them together, and are happy with our results. We have submitted all the paperwork to close these grants, so once everything is finalized, we can work on the next projects: Tony wants to paint a giant mural about hiv/aids with his art club students on a wall in town that everyone sees every single day, and I would like to do weekly video showings (I got at least 10 videos about hiv/aids and related issues from Peace Corps) at the secondary school. We are also working with the secondary school head master and teachers about ideas for income generating activities for the students, so prostitution doesn't have to look like the best option. Stay tuned!

Our one year anniversary of living in Tanzania is June 12, two days from now. I have a very hard time believing that I've lived in Africa for the last year. So where am I, mentally and emotionally and physically, compared to a year ago? I understand the extremely complicated nature of the problems of Tanzania, particularly about health issues, much better then I did one year ago--understanding the dynamics of life in Tanzania is difficult, and sometimes I feel overwhelmed, but I can now observe and understand a little better WHY people make the choices they do. I still get frustrated that I can't speak Kiswahili fluently, but again, I remember where I was one year ago and am amazed at how far I've come. I feel tired here a lot, which I mostly attribute to living under the microscope 24 hours a day; people are endlessly interested in me and what I have to say and where I'm going and what I'm doing and what I'm cooking and what I'm wearing. I've learned to accept that I will be laughed at and scrutinized every day: if I wear American clothes I am stared at and if I wear Tanzanian clothes I am stared at; if I speak Kiswahili perfectly I will be laughed at, and if I make mistakes with Kiswahili I will be laughed at, too. My body is thinner, because we walk a lot, cook all our own food (except when we travel outside of Kibakwe), and usually don't eat snacks; I have diarrhea much more frequently than I did in American (bet you're happy to know that!!), which I think is because of all the poop we live with: every single day I see donkeys, goats, cows, pigs, chickens, guinea fowl, ducks, cats and dogs, walking the streets and pooping everywhere. Even if I wash my hands religiously and boil my drinking water and eat only my cooking, which I do, I am still surrounded by poop. I miss America and I miss my friends and family and I miss comfort and ease and feeling like I can let my guard down. I worry about money and jobs and what our futures will look like when we leave Tanzania, and I worry about feeling angry with Americans for having so much and being so wasteful. I am so happy to be here and to have all the experiences I am having, and to know that my perception of the world will forever be colored by my time in Tanzania. Thanks for reading.

at long last

I'm so sorry for the long delay in updating my blog. I realize it must be boring and frustrating to check for any new updates and find nothing, time after time. Thanks for sticking with me. So here's the news, some of which may explain the dry spell in writing my blog.

Tony and I got our grants approved, which is great news. Our grants were written to get funds to sponsor two different HIV education days, one for Kibakwe's teachers, and the other for Kibakwe's HIV/AIDS support group members. Our head doctor will be the main teacher, along with our next-door neighbor, a nurse midwife (and my most favorite Tanzanian friend). There is a serious lack of information about HIV in our area, so we are doing our best to fill that need. The scheduled dates for our workshops are May 17 and May 24, so we are up to our ears in preparations right now. Like I've said before, Tony and I are excellent planners and organizers, so I expect everything to run smoothly, and for participants to be really, really happy with the workshops. We have already purchases all the supplies, gotten a ton of books (in Kiswahili) about HIV from the Peace Corps, hired some mamas to cook everyone breakfast and lunch, and are showing a short video, also in Kiswahili. More than anything else, Tony and I view our roles as Peace Corps Volunteers in two ways: first, as positive role models in our community, particularly for the high school students, and second as event coordinators for activities that relate to health and well being. We have access to resources that our villagers don't know about, so we try to funnel those resources (books, educational opportunities, and interesting videos, to name a few) into Kibakwe with the hopes that the recipients will pass their new knowledge onto others. This is what sustainability means. We'll take lots of pictures and will post them after we finish.

After the HIV workshops are completed, we have a whole new situation to throw ourselves into: the recent confirmed discovery of prostitution within the high school. Here's the bottom line: Kibakwe is very, very far away from just about everything, and the opportunity to find work just doesn't exist. There are virtually no means of earning extra money, and high school students, like everyone else, like to drink sodas every once in a while. Unfortunately, prostitution seemed like the obvious answer. I can't stop anyone from doing anything, but the least I can do is make sure they understand about protecting themselves from HIV. There are also problems with alcohol and marijuana abuse (I imagine this is a similar challenge facing high school students all over the world, actually), and, as always, I link everything to HIV infection. I wish I could offer these kids the opportunity to continue on to higher education after they finish high school (IF they finish high school, which isn't very common), but there really aren't scholarships and grants for Tanzanian colleges and technical schools like there are in the US. How do I offer a glimmer of hope?? Still trying to figure that out.

Tony was sick for a couple of weeks, but has now completely recovered. We thought it was malaria, but it turned out to be a staph infection from scratching his bug bites. One quick trip (ha ha, nothing is quick!!) to Dar es Salaam to meet with the medical office confirmed this diagnosis, and after the course of antibiotics, he's fine. I've had the blues--life is hard everywhere, I know, but it seems that sometimes the bad stuff about being here piles up on my shoulders and kicks my butt from time to time. Best solution is to bake a cake and eat it, while curling up with a book. No one said this would be easy.

Pipi the kitten was just in heat, so I might be a grandmother ("bibi" in Kiswahili) in the near future. I've never had a pet that wasn't spayed or neutered before, so this was a first for me. Not fun. She's fine now, back to her sweet, affectionate and loving self.

We are entering the winter months, and the temperature at night has gotten chilly--it's been dipping into the 50s, which has Tanzanians getting out their hats and coats. Don't laugh, those of you in Wisconsin--remember that we live in the desert in Sub-Saharan Africa, and it's HOT here. Feels good to use a blanket at night.

I just celebrated my 36th birthday in Kibakwe! It was a quiet, relaxing day; Tony made torillas and guacamole, and I baked a cake. No fan fare, just mellow. A fine day.

Enjoy spring in the US. I wish we could see the daffodils and tulips and smell the lilacs, my most favorite signal of spring. We miss you.